So I'm at the doctor with my mother, she is having other biopic on her breast. So it's a long wait knowing this I came ready to wait. Things to eat and drink, things for my little one to play with and work for me to do, becaus she will fall asleep and or play by her self and I can then work. So I find my self a place in the way back of the waiting room out of the way so she has room and so that when she wants to nurse it doesn't bother anyone. You see I'm not one to cover and I'm not one to go to the bathroom, but I do understand that it can bother some people so I do want I can with In What I feel is best but her.
You can tell I don't want to be bothered, everyone in the waiting room gets it they have said oh how sweet or cute the little one is and let it go and gone back to doing thier thing. All but this one older couple. The wife saw me when she first came in the husband didnt and had just found a sit by other people. But that sit was no good for the wife, you see at the time everyone else in the waiting room was black the wife didn't want to sit with them she made home get up and come sit by me. Then starts in on how to raise kids ok I get that everyone feels they need to tell a mother with a young child what they did no big deal. But then it starts the bull shit talk with saying things like those people. Talking about how ca they afored that phone, they most me on free health care that's how. It just pisses me off so much when people are like that, for so many reason one becuase its just wrong! Two if it hadn't been for the goverment health care my mothers cancer wouldn't have been found because even with her working full time, but her work at the time being a small none profit, that paid ok but not where she could buy insurance and because of her age and what she made she couldn't get and of the health care before Obma care. So when I here people bitching about it it upsets me becuase its what saved my mothers life!
I don't care if your older or not acting in that way is not ok! Not wanting to sit by people becuase of the color of thier skin is so backwards it's sick!
I'm a 30 something textile artists, wife, stay at home mom to a happy little girl and a modern-day homemaker trying to stay true to my Southern California roots as I navigate living in Southern Louisiana. This blog will cover a bit of sewing, cooking, green living and everything in between. I'll be showing you how to do the things I love and enjoy, as well as trying some new things a long the way.
Monday, November 27, 2017
Thursday, November 16, 2017
Learning to love the post baby body
I have to say the hardest part of having a new baby, in many ways has very little to nothing to do with the baby. This coming weekend my little girl will be 8 months old, I have gotten use to the crazy new hours, the teething, the trying to work around when she needs or wants something, I knew all of that was going to be.
But what I wasn't very clear on is just how much my body would change or how much I would be fine with it. Being ok with it is wired for me all on its own, you see I have never been fine with my body. I have always been on the plus size of things, as a teen and young adult I worked hard to be smaller and it was something that never really happened. Then in my late 20's when my life was a bit crazy with working full time school and my mothers health being in well, I ended up with IBS because adding to the crazy was planning a wedding, as the wedding came closer and closer I lost a lot of weight getting down to the smallest I had ever been and still I wasn't happen with my body. But here I am weighting more then I ever have before and I am happy with my body. I have thought a lot about why that is, I think its because other then when trying to find jeans to wear its something I don't think about. But when do think about it I think yes my body has changed because I grow a person and I'm still helping that person grow. There's something that, that has changed how I feel about myself how I look at my self. That being said yes I want to loss the "baby" weight but I'm not overly worried about when that happens, nor do I feel the need to try and make my body look as if I haven't had a baby.
I do know that many people think I'm wrong about that, all you have to do is look on line and you find so much about loss the baby weight fast get the body back. I think that's all bull shit!! This need to kill your self to try can get your body to look as if it has done what it has done. Yes I'm sure I could find more time to work out if I wanted to give up other things, for me I want to spend my time playing and holding my baby girl not working out, this time in her life isn't for long and the idea of missing things like rolling over, seeing her learning the new things that she does every day to be at the working out, to me I would be losing more then weight I would be losing this time that I can't get back.
I have heard it all on why I would be working to loss the weight from health to making my husband happy. The only reason I hear that doesn't just piss me off is health, as were the one that just makes me crazy is making my husband happy to that I have to say that's the most bull shit thing to say to a women. I shouldn't have to say that I'm lucky that my husband loves me for me not for how I look because that is how it should be but sadly I know that I'm lucky. I know women who's husband say mean things to them about the added weight, and its just so wrong. when you have a baby your body changes that should be seen as a bad thing it should be seen as a good thing! WE NEED TO STOP! this trying to make our bodies go back to per baby 100% and so fast, it takes time to grow a baby so it takes time to get our bodies even some what back to what it was.
But what I wasn't very clear on is just how much my body would change or how much I would be fine with it. Being ok with it is wired for me all on its own, you see I have never been fine with my body. I have always been on the plus size of things, as a teen and young adult I worked hard to be smaller and it was something that never really happened. Then in my late 20's when my life was a bit crazy with working full time school and my mothers health being in well, I ended up with IBS because adding to the crazy was planning a wedding, as the wedding came closer and closer I lost a lot of weight getting down to the smallest I had ever been and still I wasn't happen with my body. But here I am weighting more then I ever have before and I am happy with my body. I have thought a lot about why that is, I think its because other then when trying to find jeans to wear its something I don't think about. But when do think about it I think yes my body has changed because I grow a person and I'm still helping that person grow. There's something that, that has changed how I feel about myself how I look at my self. That being said yes I want to loss the "baby" weight but I'm not overly worried about when that happens, nor do I feel the need to try and make my body look as if I haven't had a baby.
I do know that many people think I'm wrong about that, all you have to do is look on line and you find so much about loss the baby weight fast get the body back. I think that's all bull shit!! This need to kill your self to try can get your body to look as if it has done what it has done. Yes I'm sure I could find more time to work out if I wanted to give up other things, for me I want to spend my time playing and holding my baby girl not working out, this time in her life isn't for long and the idea of missing things like rolling over, seeing her learning the new things that she does every day to be at the working out, to me I would be losing more then weight I would be losing this time that I can't get back.
I have heard it all on why I would be working to loss the weight from health to making my husband happy. The only reason I hear that doesn't just piss me off is health, as were the one that just makes me crazy is making my husband happy to that I have to say that's the most bull shit thing to say to a women. I shouldn't have to say that I'm lucky that my husband loves me for me not for how I look because that is how it should be but sadly I know that I'm lucky. I know women who's husband say mean things to them about the added weight, and its just so wrong. when you have a baby your body changes that should be seen as a bad thing it should be seen as a good thing! WE NEED TO STOP! this trying to make our bodies go back to per baby 100% and so fast, it takes time to grow a baby so it takes time to get our bodies even some what back to what it was.
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