I have to say the hardest part of having a new baby, in many ways has very little to nothing to do with the baby. This coming weekend my little girl will be 8 months old, I have gotten use to the crazy new hours, the teething, the trying to work around when she needs or wants something, I knew all of that was going to be.
But what I wasn't very clear on is just how much my body would change or how much I would be fine with it. Being ok with it is wired for me all on its own, you see I have never been fine with my body. I have always been on the plus size of things, as a teen and young adult I worked hard to be smaller and it was something that never really happened. Then in my late 20's when my life was a bit crazy with working full time school and my mothers health being in well, I ended up with IBS because adding to the crazy was planning a wedding, as the wedding came closer and closer I lost a lot of weight getting down to the smallest I had ever been and still I wasn't happen with my body. But here I am weighting more then I ever have before and I am happy with my body. I have thought a lot about why that is, I think its because other then when trying to find jeans to wear its something I don't think about. But when do think about it I think yes my body has changed because I grow a person and I'm still helping that person grow. There's something that, that has changed how I feel about myself how I look at my self. That being said yes I want to loss the "baby" weight but I'm not overly worried about when that happens, nor do I feel the need to try and make my body look as if I haven't had a baby.
I do know that many people think I'm wrong about that, all you have to do is look on line and you find so much about loss the baby weight fast get the body back. I think that's all bull shit!! This need to kill your self to try can get your body to look as if it has done what it has done. Yes I'm sure I could find more time to work out if I wanted to give up other things, for me I want to spend my time playing and holding my baby girl not working out, this time in her life isn't for long and the idea of missing things like rolling over, seeing her learning the new things that she does every day to be at the working out, to me I would be losing more then weight I would be losing this time that I can't get back.
I have heard it all on why I would be working to loss the weight from health to making my husband happy. The only reason I hear that doesn't just piss me off is health, as were the one that just makes me crazy is making my husband happy to that I have to say that's the most bull shit thing to say to a women. I shouldn't have to say that I'm lucky that my husband loves me for me not for how I look because that is how it should be but sadly I know that I'm lucky. I know women who's husband say mean things to them about the added weight, and its just so wrong. when you have a baby your body changes that should be seen as a bad thing it should be seen as a good thing! WE NEED TO STOP! this trying to make our bodies go back to per baby 100% and so fast, it takes time to grow a baby so it takes time to get our bodies even some what back to what it was.
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